It all comes back…

The good the bad the evil
What you do today is the deed
That will make its round
And come back to you indeed

If you have tread the path
In honestly and valour
Trust the forces of nature
To bring that back in galore

And if you have sinned and wronged
And not mended your ways
Trust me buddy someday
You will face those sinful days

Take your heart out now
And look for what you do
The sooner you see the truth
You will walk in better shoes

For the good the bad the evil
Whatever be your deed
It always makes a round
n comes back to you indeed!

~ Sabiha
12th Nov 09

Define Love

A feeling of euphoria
Or frayed nerves?
Warmth that surrounds
Or thoughts that jumble?
A peace and calm
Or tangled emotions?

What and how does love define?

Hatred and jealousy
Or unflinching faith?
Proximity in flesh
Or closeness in mind?
Tied to a relation
Or bonded to be free?

How does indeed your love define?

~Sabiha

Love, you can kill!

I am not going to be lured by you
I have seen and lived your viciousness
Hopes and dreams and happiness forever!
That’s what novices think and believe
But I know and many will agree with me
That you can banish, destroy and kill!

You are a very bitter pill to take
Who is sugarcoated for the palate!
And I will not be duped again
Nor will I agree or surrender
Threaten me with emotions
Or make me feel so special
Try everyway into my heart
I will not let you in anyway
I have already seen your true face
And I refused to be lured again

Hopes and dreams and happiness!
That’s what they really think you give?
I know better and many do
You can banish and destroy,
And love, you can kill!

My Poetry

My poetry
My outlet
Of pain n hurt
Of joy n truth
Of love n hate
Of life n death
Of all I care
N all that matters
My relief
My balm
My way out

Dark Labyrinth

Dark labyrinth
My mind has become
Thoughts scattered
Hopes shattered

I don’t know why
I don’t know how
I reached this stage
Of self destruction

The smile that won
A thousand hearts
Has been replaced
With a perennial frown

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
I am no longer
What I used to be

Dark labyrinth….
And I am lost…
Lost in turmoil
Lost forever?

We all make a difference...

I wonder at times
Such a big vast world
Me, such a small being
Can I ever make a difference?

But then I remember
The good lord has made
Every thing with a value
So we all make a difference

Some affect geography
Some change the history
Some break and some make
But they all make a difference

Some rule the big cities
Some tend to small fields
Some follow and some lead
Yet they all make a difference

The world knows some
And some are little known
Some are big and some small
And they all make a difference

So my worries are unfound
And neither should you worry
Because in our own little ways
We make a world of a difference!

Human Bonds

The times one spends in the loving company of family and/or friends are so precious! An evening on the beach or a picnic in the garden is the most simplest of activity we all occupy ourselves in…but imagine what life would be if we were to do this all alone every time?! Some solitude is a must and we all do spend self-time, but it’s always the times together with someone else that keep coming back in the form of fond memories over the years.

Have you ever thought of that alone time you spend shopping at a mall or reading a book or having a walk? I doubt. We enjoy it when we do it, but we rarely think about it as there are no special moments made in that. The making of funny faces, the licking of ice cream, the tussle and fights, the teasing and joking, the dance and the songs….these are all moments made by those others when we are in company and that’s why they are etched in memory.

Much as people say that they like their own company it’s not really true. In those own company times one is invariably with something – a book, a movie, cooking, shopping or simply doing some kind of work. There might be no other human presence but one is not really absolutely solitary…there is that activity to keep the person occupied.

There are very few people who have learned the art of being in their own company sans any human presence or indulging in any activity associated with other things. The time when one is with one’s mind trying to make something of life…something calm and positive. Not the kind where one is just unhappily mulling over things and cribbing to oneself….we all are capable of being with ourselves in that manner and its what can be called as avoiding company rather than being with self! It’s the self realization, spiritual or philosophical being with oneself that I am talking about. This being with one self is devoid of human presence or being active with something. In this state one is with one’s mind and that’s when one is truly with oneself.

Being truly with oneself is so necessary. It helps in taking stock of our lives and where we are going. It also helps in reaching a mental balance and in achieving a positive outlook. But can one always stay in this state? In fact by staying in this state constantly one is actually defeating the whole purpose of the process. This process is required to help you let go of your ill wills and negativities so that you can go back in the company of other beings or continue your activities in a more pleasant and harmonious manner. If one just stays in one’s company all the time the good that comes out of it can never be utilized. Such a waste!

So at the end of the day we do things with ourselves and to ourselves but these are all for the benefit of enjoying what every human essentially requires. Another human company! Man is a social animal and his family and friends are the closest bonds in the social circle that enrich, enliven and fulfill his life! The bonds that form the bitter-sweet memories of his life!

Fulfilled Life

In life I saw a different meaning
And their definition never matched

To me what friendship ever meant
Was not how they could ever define

True love as I had envisaged
Was not how they saw love to be

Success to me was peace of mind
For them it was in counts of “haves”

I believed in being slow and steady
They always saw the fastest track

While I enjoyed the vibrant colours
They chased the gold at rainbows end

With simple pleasures and open mind
I went on to make my happy world

A bunch of friends who believe in me
And a love beyond the wildest dream

My success is in my life’s realm
While they are still wandering on

In search of peace and happiness
That they interpret by list of wants

And thus I live my life fulfilled
While they are still in search of life!

~Sabiha