sojourn

Questions to God...

2011-11-26T23:16:00.000+04:00

A question to you God...

Are you amused today?

Am torn between love and desperation,

fun and seriousness,

escapism and bonds,

am torn and you know why!

Does this amuse you; my dilemma?

My long wait, over...

but do I get to let myself go

and enjoy this glorious moment?

No, because ironically,

am also pushed further in darkness

for my frolics come to haunt...

Are you amused by this?!

I am so close to you,

and want to experience the miracles,

but there are hurdles that won't go away....

I look up to you...show me the way,

guide me my creator,

because I am weary and tired

and I want to hold the rainbow

that's beckoning me so violently.

I want to lose myself and be free...

let me go will you?

Will you stop amusing yourself

and allow me the happiness that's my right?!

It all comes back…

2009-11-12T15:37:00.002+04:00

The good the bad the evil
What you do today is the deed
That will make its round
And come back to you indeed

If you have tread the path
In honestly and valour
Trust the forces of nature
To bring that back in galore

And if you have sinned and wronged
And not mended your ways
Trust me buddy someday
You will face those sinful days

Take your heart out now
And look for what you do
The sooner you see the truth
You will walk in better shoes

For the good the bad the evil
Whatever be your deed
It always makes a round
n comes back to you indeed!

~ Sabiha
12th Nov 09

Define Love

2007-09-02T11:45:00.000+04:00

A feeling of euphoria
Or frayed nerves?
Warmth that surrounds
Or thoughts that jumble?
A peace and calm
Or tangled emotions?

What and how does love define?

Hatred and jealousy
Or unflinching faith?
Proximity in flesh
Or closeness in mind?
Tied to a relation
Or bonded to be free?

How does indeed your love define?

~Sabiha

Love, you can kill!

2007-03-08T10:23:00.000+04:00

I am not going to be lured by you
I have seen and lived your viciousness
Hopes and dreams and happiness forever!
That’s what novices think and believe
But I know and many will agree with me
That you can banish, destroy and kill!

You are a very bitter pill to take
Who is sugarcoated for the palate!
And I will not be duped again
Nor will I agree or surrender
Threaten me with emotions
Or make me feel so special
Try everyway into my heart
I will not let you in anyway
I have already seen your true face
And I refused to be lured again

Hopes and dreams and happiness!
That’s what they really think you give?
I know better and many do
You can banish and destroy,
And love, you can kill!

My Poetry

2007-02-10T13:33:00.000+04:00

My poetry
My outlet
Of pain n hurt
Of joy n truth
Of love n hate
Of life n death
Of all I care
N all that matters
My relief
My balm
My way out

Dark Labyrinth

2007-02-10T13:29:00.000+04:00

Dark labyrinth
My mind has become
Thoughts scattered
Hopes shattered

I don’t know why
I don’t know how
I reached this stage
Of self destruction

The smile that won
A thousand hearts
Has been replaced
With a perennial frown

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
I am no longer
What I used to be

Dark labyrinth….
And I am lost…
Lost in turmoil
Lost forever?

We all make a difference...

2006-10-15T11:08:00.000+04:00

I wonder at times
Such a big vast world
Me, such a small being
Can I ever make a difference?

But then I remember
The good lord has made
Every thing with a value
So we all make a difference

Some affect geography
Some change the history
Some break and some make
But they all make a difference

Some rule the big cities
Some tend to small fields
Some follow and some lead
Yet they all make a difference

The world knows some
And some are little known
Some are big and some small
And they all make a difference

So my worries are unfound
And neither should you worry
Because in our own little ways
We make a world of a difference!

Human Bonds

2006-09-30T11:32:00.000+04:00

The times one spends in the loving company of family and/or friends are so precious! An evening on the beach or a picnic in the garden is the most simplest of activity we all occupy ourselves in…but imagine what life would be if we were to do this all alone every time?! Some solitude is a must and we all do spend self-time, but it’s always the times together with someone else that keep coming back in the form of fond memories over the years.

Have you ever thought of that alone time you spend shopping at a mall or reading a book or having a walk? I doubt. We enjoy it when we do it, but we rarely think about it as there are no special moments made in that. The making of funny faces, the licking of ice cream, the tussle and fights, the teasing and joking, the dance and the songs….these are all moments made by those others when we are in company and that’s why they are etched in memory.

Much as people say that they like their own company it’s not really true. In those own company times one is invariably with something – a book, a movie, cooking, shopping or simply doing some kind of work. There might be no other human presence but one is not really absolutely solitary…there is that activity to keep the person occupied.

There are very few people who have learned the art of being in their own company sans any human presence or indulging in any activity associated with other things. The time when one is with one’s mind trying to make something of life…something calm and positive. Not the kind where one is just unhappily mulling over things and cribbing to oneself….we all are capable of being with ourselves in that manner and its what can be called as avoiding company rather than being with self! It’s the self realization, spiritual or philosophical being with oneself that I am talking about. This being with one self is devoid of human presence or being active with something. In this state one is with one’s mind and that’s when one is truly with oneself.

Being truly with oneself is so necessary. It helps in taking stock of our lives and where we are going. It also helps in reaching a mental balance and in achieving a positive outlook. But can one always stay in this state? In fact by staying in this state constantly one is actually defeating the whole purpose of the process. This process is required to help you let go of your ill wills and negativities so that you can go back in the company of other beings or continue your activities in a more pleasant and harmonious manner. If one just stays in one’s company all the time the good that comes out of it can never be utilized. Such a waste!

So at the end of the day we do things with ourselves and to ourselves but these are all for the benefit of enjoying what every human essentially requires. Another human company! Man is a social animal and his family and friends are the closest bonds in the social circle that enrich, enliven and fulfill his life! The bonds that form the bitter-sweet memories of his life!

Fulfilled Life

2006-09-17T00:24:00.000+04:00

In life I saw a different meaning
And their definition never matched

To me what friendship ever meant
Was not how they could ever define

True love as I had envisaged
Was not how they saw love to be

Success to me was peace of mind
For them it was in counts of “haves”

I believed in being slow and steady
They always saw the fastest track

While I enjoyed the vibrant colours
They chased the gold at rainbows end

With simple pleasures and open mind
I went on to make my happy world

A bunch of friends who believe in me
And a love beyond the wildest dream

My success is in my life’s realm
While they are still wandering on

In search of peace and happiness
That they interpret by list of wants

And thus I live my life fulfilled
While they are still in search of life!

~Sabiha

You are my Hope

2006-08-16T23:43:00.000+04:00

Traversing my thoughts
A lost sensation
The myriad difficulties
Uncertain tomorrow

The dawn and the dusk
Seemingly shallow
Hope fleeting away
Not finding its ground

In the darkness of mind
Tumbling down
Waiting for the light
A small glimpse

Your image enters
I find the foothold
In the spiraling abyss
There’s a ray of hope

~Sabiha

Shattered Myths!

2006-06-04T13:33:00.000+04:00

Trust? Faith? Love?
Shattered myths!

The heart only burns
It breaks and crushes

Trust to understand
Faith to support
Love to reign supreme

Shattered myths!

Selfish you and me
Selfish our love
Never gives any
Always wanting

Hope? Bliss?
Shattered myths!

Shattered love
Shattered faith
Shattered trust!

Shattered everything!

Today I resigned

2006-05-25T08:34:00.000+04:00

Today I resigned
Finally I did!
It’s been a long time
Five long years!

A learning experience
Though a sharp feeling
Of being used
Of being deprived

A chunk of my life
Given away
An experience
But nothing else

Perhaps this is
A new beginning
Perhaps better things
Are on my way

I will sorely miss
The people, the work
But never really
The lousy pay

And with that thought
I feel very nice
It was time
To move away

They have been long
Long five years
Today I did
I finally resigned!

Our Fight

2006-05-16T17:17:00.000+04:00

A few hours
Like eternity

The heart feels
A wild tightening
The hours are drag
The day looks dim

My smile feels
Frozen on lips
A forced action
For sake of civility

The eyes feel
The need to cry
Tears somehow
Refuse to flow out

For the first time
Ever since we met
Your voice unheard
Your breath not felt

A few hours
Like eternity!

Seven Stages of an Employee

2006-05-15T10:15:00.000+04:00

The seven stages that an employee goes through..

1. The excitement stage – you are new and you are excited to have a job and you want to get going! – A pretty short lived stage!

2. The Feel-good stage – you are just beginning to understand how things work (or you think they work!) and are in this blissful stage because people are encouraging and being nice to you – little do you know that your mistakes are being forgiven only because you are new and people are just giving you more time!

3. The confused stage – this is when everyone in the office “assumes” you have learnt the basics and are ready to take in more, so all the work starts getting directed to you and you don’t know where you are going!

4. The crazy stage – when you know pretty much how everything works in the office (and you do!) but you are still not the expert so you slip once in a while but wont agree you did coz you think you know better!

5. The experienced stage – When you know that you know better (and you do!) and yet you know that life is a learning process, but you can handle it!

6. The want to go stage – you are experienced, but you know you are not getting your worth and you start looking elsewhere for a better deal (better pay or better treatment or both!)

7. Experienced but crazy stage – you have surpassed all the above stages and still there. Now you know mostly everything but you know so much and you have reached such an age that you become a little crazy and start expecting everyone else in the office – the employees undergoing the different stages above – to know as much as you do!

Sunset

2006-05-14T14:07:00.000+04:00

Enthralled I watched
The sweet union
The coloured rapture
The merging of bodies

The stillness in one
The lapping another
The fiery globe
Drowning or hiding?

The colours vanished
Slow and steady
The bodies merged
In dark fantasy

The stars twinkled
In celebration
The night united
The sky and the sea

~Sabiha

Silk n Silkworm

2006-05-12T14:30:00.000+04:00

Adorns the form
Of rich damsels
A classic wear
A simple drape

How valuable
How soft it feels
A woman’s choice
The gleaming fabric

A crawl on greens
Munching leaves
A mere insect
Creating links

The value worm
A unique bred
Oozing out
The silken thread

~Sabiha

Words

2006-05-12T14:26:00.000+04:00

Tender Words, Sweet words
Words of Wisdom, Words that Heal

Words that make you smile a while
Words that give you hope at length
Words that blow your mind away
Words that cheer and give you strength

Harsh Words, Bitter words
Words of hate, Words that kill

Words that bring tears to the eyes
Words that make you hide away
Words that put you in misery
Words that bring sorrow, dismay

Think twice then open you mouth
Mind your words, mind what you say
Words are not "but just words"
Words have a power to nurture or slay!

~Sabiha

Mirage!

2006-05-12T14:23:00.000+04:00

When I was just a child, happiness was so rife
Ignorant of all ill will, basking in myths of life

The days were so bright, future so promising
The antics of young mind so very enchanting!

And as life took new turns, over phases of age
The scenes that I saw, brought disgust and rage

The tender mind each day, turning into a rock
Each new experience, rocking the mind with shock!

Hatred everywhere, greed causing deep agony
Lust dominant, love outdated – way past glory

What childhood had dreamt and young age envisaged
Was not the reality, but an overwhelming mirage!

~Sabiha

I Live by the day!

2006-05-12T14:19:00.000+04:00

Dewdrops on the leaf
Shining like pearl
The morning mist
Encompassing the world

The sun has yet
To show its face
The early day
In the fogs embrace

Stillness in air
Softness in breeze
The shine of heat
Held on a leash

Soon will depart
The lumbering haze
The earth will glitter
The sun will blaze

The calmness of dawn
The noon’s fire
Both touch my heart
Both inspire

From the dawn
I learn to control
The feeling of heart
The desires of soul

The heat of the day
Strengthens my resolve
To fight difficulties
To achieve my goal

The early mornings
Show me the way
To live my life
I learn from the day

~ Sabiha

His Love - Her Guide

2006-05-12T14:14:00.000+04:00

The struggles of life had made her vile
In the smoke she found solace
The amber liquid scorched her throat
Her nights long and languorous

He brought to her hope of life
A dream to see, a dream to live
He made her see her inner light
To fight with the demons of doubt

His arms gave her, strong support
Bestowing peace and stability
Her world much brighter today
He made the world worth living

With him as her guiding force
She undertook life’s new journey
A chance meeting, a loving gaze
Forever changed her destiny

~Sabiha

Lost without you!

2006-05-12T14:10:00.000+04:00

Through your love alone I found
The desire to live on
And hope in my eyes
Of a future oh so bright!

Each day I lived with you
Was the best day of my life
For I was in the warmth
Of your kind and spirited light

You made me a better person
You brought wisdom to me
Of love, life and living
Your kindness gave insight

But since you turned away
And left no mark to follow
I have been wandering aimless
My life one endless night

How can I regain my faith?
How can I bring you back?
What need I do pray tell me?
That will relieve my plight!

~Sabiha

Loser?

2006-05-12T14:05:00.000+04:00

When words fail to convey, the messages of the heart
What can a lonely soul do? Where can I make a start?

I live to love them all, and love I do - a lot
But that’s not what they want - the people of my heart

What is seen is how much, we have gained or bought
Not of love or wisdom, but wealth of other sort

Pureness of the heart, is not in list of wants
Money does the talking, and gold here enchants

The world is not for people, like me who just believe
That love is all it takes, to keep going, to live

For I am called a loser - a loser so despised
Because I do not subscribe, to their kind of life

Though loser I may be, in their vocabulary
Who really is the winner? Will have to wait and see!

~Sabiha

Deserts Destiny

2006-05-12T13:56:00.000+04:00

Winter is round the corner
Cool breeze will act as balm
On weary souls and parched land
Some hope to carry on….

The deserts are but barren
And hot as they can be
The sun scorching as ever
And water a scarcity…

Some seasons bring along happiness
And hope of life again
And yet they never really
Change the dunes destiny…

For sand is as light as can be
And floats along with air
One dune eroding away
And one forming elsewhere…

~Sabiha

Tomorrow or Today?

2006-05-12T13:49:00.000+04:00

Till tomorrow
I wait a day
But tomorrow never
Comes my way

The moment today
Becomes yesterday
Tomorrow turns
Into Today

I think and I think
But haven’t found a way
To make Tomorrow
Stay that way

So now I think
Why waste your time?
When Tomorrow turns
Today everyday?

So let it stay
and be this way
Forget tomorrow
And live for Today!

~Sabiha

Friend

2006-05-12T13:42:00.000+04:00

A smile
A shoulder
A word
A whisper
A wink
A banter
A hope
A laughter
A life
A wonder

~Sabiha

Time with Self

2006-03-31T15:24:00.000+04:00

I meet a lot of people
I make a lot of friends
I party hard and enjoy
I keep up with the trends

But also there’s this person
Someone inside me
Who needs my attention
And wants to be with me

In the months bygone
I haven’t been with her
Too engrossed in activity
And vying another

The self has been lonely
And loosing on her charm
My sudden social standing
Doing her much harm

So now I have started
Spending alone time
Pondering with the self
This best friend of mine

I have learnt a lesson
And will keep it in mind
Time spent with oneself
Is one of its kind!

It rejuvenates me
And keeps me going
By making peace with self
I’m a better human being!

~Sabiha

Vindication

2006-01-03T12:38:00.000+04:00

If life must have a goal
What is my inclination?
If living is a journey
Where is my destination?

Having searched the world
To find love pure and true
The obsession for the surreal
Causing annihilation!

Now I collect the ashes
Of dreams burnt and charred
Ostracized by society
Awaiting Vindication…

~Sabiha

In love with you

2005-12-28T13:06:00.000+04:00

Through your eyes I can see
Your feelings for me
Your love shows through
Everything you do

Your arms hold me close
And give me strength
Your words always soothe
And refresh my soul

The times we are together
Are precious moments
Your unflinching love
An irreplaceable gift

Keeps growing each day
My love for you
I celebrate being
In love with you…

~Sabiha

Pondering

2005-09-05T20:47:00.000+04:00

A thought, a note
Am restless, pondering

Is life passing by?
Or it’s me wondering?

I do often
Desire to see
Amazing things

I do often
Feel the need
To spread my wings

Have I done enough yet?
Have I lived my life yet?
Have I seen as many springs?
Or it’s me wondering?

Is life passing by? A thought, a note
Am restless, pondering…